Currently sitting in my car with a smoothie in hand (I got the chocolate gladiator with strawberries, bananas and almond butter) while the temperature outside continues to drop. Shoutout to the SK worker that made my smoothie. They put their WHOLE FOOT into it, it’s bomb. I guess it’s true what they say about old cars and how the cold will show their age (if that’s true or not I’m not sure, that’s just what I heard). My car was probably the loudest leaving the neighborhood, making some questionable noises that maybe shouldn’t be ignored. I’ve made it a goal to watch more movies this year because the amount of “ain’t no way” and “how have you not seen that” statements are ridiculous. It’s gotten to the point where before even finishing the question, I already began to shake my head because I know I haven’t seen it. Maybe I’m not a movie person or maybe I just haven’t taken the time to watch them, I don’t know. Nonetheless I’ve been making an attempt at watching some. I finally watched The Matrix (yes I now understand the hype). I watched I, Robot which I was a fan of. Tropic Thunder was funny but I wouldn’t say pissing my pants funny (sue me). Then there was Grandma’s Boy which was uh… let’s say I could’ve gone without watching that one. #FeelFreetoLeaveMovieSuggestions
But besides playing catch up on movies, this year so far has sucked. Like stuck its foot so far up my ass it wiggles its middle toe just to tickle my throat for giggles. I’ve got 11 more months to make this year my bitch though, so wish me luck. I have to make some decisions and stick to them. Besides that, I constantly feel like I’m fighting time. Time never stops, waits, or slows down for anyone (which duh right). I know this, but fuck I just can’t seem to find my way. Everyone says “you’re right where you’re supposed to be” which can be true in some cases. In other cases I think it’s just a coping mechanism, but the hardest part is not knowing which one it is. Also not knowing which direction to move and sometimes feeling like you can’t move at all.
Off topic (it’s my blog though so fuck off) but I had a dream about a childhood best friend last night. I wonder what that was about. I heard that if you have a dream about someone they are thinking about you. Frankly I can do without her thinking about me thank you. Anyway I dreamed that I was helping her with a problem she was having with her dad. Weird right? Like I haven’t thought about this girl since forever ago and out of all things why that? Dreams are weird.